My Princess is 5!

I heard a quote once that went something like this: "Having a child is like letting your heart fly around outside your body". Exactly five years ago today I came to truly understand the meaning of that saying. Siena Leigh Wilson came into my life and forever changed me as a person, for the good. I am more sensitive, more selfless, more compassionate, and more patient since becoming a mother.

I always pictured I would have a large family, I wanted 4-6 kids. I also wanted ALL boys! When I found out I was pregnant with a girl I think it was more fear than disappointment that I felt. I know that those mother/daughter relationships can be so difficult sometimes and I thought if I just had boys I could avoid that completely! I didn't avoid it, I hit it dead on, and she could not be more girl if she tried. I wouldn't trade her or our relationship for anything. I love that I can look forward to always having someone to do "girly" things with.

In the last five years I have learned more about myself as a woman and a girl through Siena than I have in my entire life. The innocence she has and the inate things we as girls/women need are just in us, that's how we are wired....I see those things everyday in her and it makes me smile. Today was a bittersweet day for me. I love all the things she is learning and just enjoying watching her grow and change. I hate that it has to happen so fast. I feel like these last five years have just flown by and I wish I could slow them down. I always tell Siena that she is not allowed to grow up, and she always says, "Yes, I'm going to!". The other day when I told her that she said, "Well, I am going to grow up mommy, but I'll still be your little girl." Of course I turned around, walked into my bathroom...and cried!

Happy Birthday my sweet Siena girl! I love you.